love nest to be...

would you love this, my dear?

discussing about harith

bayangkan...kami suami isteri sampaikena meeting dalam bilik belakang sambil minum kopi. topiknya...what's the best way to handle our son. hahahhaa! nak tergelak pun ada. nak tergelak part hubby cakap "ok, meeting's over" sambil bukak pintu.

harith ni menurut hubby, dia seorang anak yang baik dan behati mulia. smp begitu sekali.

dia hormat pada orang yg lebih tua daripadanya. esp dgn teachers...dia sgt hormat dan takut. bayangkan walaupun his form teacher yang selalu marah dan punish dia...he still likes her. and yang aku surprise tu, menurut seorang lagi cikgu, form teacher dia tu sgt sayang pada harith. she ever write in his report book "it's such a joy to have him in my class" despite result dia yg teruk tu.

he's not like jasmine. jasmine agak kasar perilaku dia. kasar in term of cara bercakap dgn aku. i don't know what's the right word. kasar bukan mcm cakap menengking ke apa. dia jenis...contohnya kalau kita cakap dgn dia, dia jawab mcm acuh tak acuh...tak tgk muka kita bila bercakap, susah nak senyum. tapi dia ada kebaikan dia sendiri. part responsible tu yes la...mmg boleh diharap buat kerja2 rumah ni. sampai MIL aku tegur hubby, jangan selalu sgt suruh jasmine buat housework. boleh gitu?

harith ni senang cakap thank you. kita hidangkan nasi kat dia, dia cakap thank you. kalau dia mintak kita masak apa2 untuk dia and kita buat dia datang ke dapur, peluk and cakap thank you. semalam aku tolong simpankan baju2 dia ke dalam almari dia cakap "thank you ma" kalau jasmine...huh. kadang tu makan hati ooo dgn dia. hubby pun piss off dgn cara dia menjawab kekadang. kalau bapak aku, dah lama dah kena jerkah sekali! padan muka. hahahaha! geram ooo. tapi bila fikirkan the good side of her...tak sampai hati nak marah.

harith ni dia selalu tolong layan hannah. tapi dia jugalah yg suka menyakat budak tu. kdg2 kita bingit...harith juga yang kena. kesian budak tu.

so meeting hari tu, hauuby kata, dia selalu menyesal bila lepas marahkan harith. tapi selalunya mmg boleh hilang sabar ooo kalau dia buat benda2 yg annoying n blur. now, muka dia selalu sedih je bila lepas kena marah. agaknya dia hairan apasal aku selalu kena marah dgn mama n dad. ish sedih sgt aih! kami dah berazam untuk lebih bersabar dgn harith. itu saja. kami perlukan kesabaran yg kental.

again

my weakness is, aku malas nak solve my problems. aku suka bury my problem...or maybe bukan problem. apa2 benda yg aku tak puas hati. aku bury...sbb aku suka nak happy happy ja. disussing things my my husband usually will lead to an argument. tu yg paling aku meluat!

once in a while i did tell him off as a joke. sumting like "i'm tired of living like this"...but that's it. maybe he never thought that i really mean it.

semalam aku mimpi aku menjerit. aku masuk dalam bilik dan menjerit sekuat hati sebab sangat tension dgn keadaan sekeliling aku.

agaknya mmg itu yg aku selalu rasa bila mcm depress sgt. rasa nak menjerit kuat kuat. i always feel like this. sbb tu kot sampai termimpi mimpi.

mmg aku rasa aku ada sikit sign of depression. aku boleh nampak yg perangai aku ada kalanya sgt buruk. iu adalah satu cara aku nak rebel.

no. it's not about relationship problem with my husband. it's just that i don't love him strong enuf kot to stand his behaviour. it's such a challenge to live with orang yg suka go with the flow like him.

i terseksa yew!

my other side of story

everybody in my FB seems so happy with their life. their status are all about their happiness.

today i really feels like shouting to the world of how pathetic my life is

lihatlah dunia!!! I'VE BEEN LIVING LIKE I'M NEITHER HERE NOR THERE!!!

but i just couldn't do it in my FB. i can't let my friends know my situation, my feeling. i don't want them to misunderstand that maybe my husband has been neglecting me. i don't want them to laugh at me...HAHAHA! you are 36 and so miserable.

now i know how does it feels if you don't let out yr anger, yr dissatisfaction an so on.

people are so happy and yet me...pretending to be happy. or are they pretending too? maybe some of them.

i feel so lost on my birthday. i feel so wanna just burst out. i want to go somewhere, up on top of the hill maybe...have a good smoke and just cry my heart out...sob sob!!

resepi pasta aglio olio sambal belacan untuk Hanis

ini pasta kegemaran aku! aglio olio sambal belacan

bahan-bahannya:

*extra virgin olive oil
*4 ulasbawang putih dipotong halus utk diumis
*1 labu bawang besar dipotong dadu utk ditumis
*3 ulas bawang merah dihiris halus
*1 biji capsicum merah & 2 biji buah tomato dipotong kecil-kecil
*1 sudu teh sambal belacan (kalau nak pedas, lebihkan cili padi dlm sambal. belacan jgn byk. nanti rasa dia kemelayuan sgt). terpulanglah nak perah limau atau nak letak jus asam gelugur. terus terang aku tumbuk sambal belacan pun tak pas lagi. rasa dia tak konsisten.
cili padi dihiris kecil-kecil
udang & sotong
garam & serbuk lada putih

cara membuatnya:

*panaskan olive oil. tapi jgn smp panas sgt smp berasap.
*tumis bawang putih & bawang besar.
*kemudian masukkan bawang merah, gaul sekejap jer sebelum masukkan sambal belacan, capsicum dan tomato.
*tumis dlm 3 - minit, kemudian masukkan sotong dan udang. masa ni, besarkan api dan keep on kacau. baru sotong dan udang jadi cantik. api besar tapi jgn lama sgt takut udang overcooked.
*in between masukkan garam dan serbuk lada putih secukup rasa.
*masukkan spaghetti serta hirisan cili padi dan gaulkan. masa ni kalau agak sambal tu mcm kering, tambahkan olive oil.
**nota: sebelum masukkan spaghetti, pastikan capsicum dah lembut yer.
*gaulkan atas api dlm 3 minit mcm tu, then tutup api.
*tabur daun ketumbar or daun bawang dan bawang goreng.
siap!

mesti try tau!